Blue Roses

Everything is just such a mess. Aarti won't let me sublet to a guy, only guys are calling, my dad is getting so pissed off that I would have to pay to live here and not live here, I'm plenty not happy about it myself, and it's so horrible. I don't know what to do, only guys are calling and I can't control that. I've put in two inquiries to summer jobs on campus, but I would hate that. I want to go home. I want to work at the clinic again, but damn Janet never called back. I've been working hard on this and nothing is happening. I just fucking don't know what else to do.

I've had ESPN on all day for Derby Day. Mom always watches, got me hooked in long ago. This year she says she's not going to watch. I've never been one for paying attention to favorites or anything, I'm one of the stupid ones who goes by names. So, good luck, Ocean Sound. Wish I could watch with my mom.