Blue Roses

Oh, this is so not a good week. This weekend was spent trying to be cheery when really, all I wanted was to curl up and cry, and now. Now, my TiVo has left me.

I came up at 10:30 last night, intent on watching some of Desperate Housewives before bed. I turned on my TV - a new black and white screen saying, "Welcome. Powering up...." greeted me. It continued to greet me. I rebooted and unplugged things. Still with the same message. I thought maybe it was because I had moved my computer in the day before, and having two power strips in one outlet divided the electricity too much. I turned off my computer and unplugged the power strip and did the TiVo power cycle reboot again. Nothing.

Tried again tonight. Visited troubleshooting on the website, called tech support. I was told that all they could do was approve an exchange. I mail them my recorder, they mail me a new one.

A blank one. Because data cannot be saved. An entire season of Gilmore Girls that I hadn't moved to a highlights tape. Movies. Favorite scenes. Last year's Joan of Arcadia finale, which I thought was TV's finest hour. Chris Kirkpatrick on Fairly Odd Parents. My only Queer as Folk special, from VH1, cued up to Justin and Brian's prom dance. All my little tidbits I've saved over the last year for a little pick me up before bed. They are all gone. Poof. With the wind.

I would cry, except I'm too sad. It keeps trying to connect to TV, it's trying so hard! It seems like it's getting closer, but it can't make the connection.

I think I signed up for the burn it, I sent the e-mail, but my luck, it didn't get through. I'm afraid to play Sims, lest something new befall something I love. And that laptop I wanted for my birthday? Is it really worth the heartbreak that comes when technology fails?