Blue Roses

I think I found a way for those damned popup ads to not bother me - Netscape and AOL don't have them! And Netscape automatically imported my IE bookmarks, bless its heart! And poof, no more ads. I'm so happy. Problem isn't solved, of course, since they still exist on my computer, but it's a good fix until summer vacation when I can bring my baby in. {{HUGS Netscape}}

My cousin's wedding is Sunday. I'm a bridesmaid and therefore spending the weekend downtown with the wedding party. Friday is vodka shots followed by another bar for maitais followed by another place for brandy and cigars. It's a combo bachelor/bachelorette party. Um, yeah, kinda not thrilled. PLus, the wedding? Lord. Her mom, my aunt, won't be there. It's an awful mess, and it's not a happy time, and wow, it won't be fun at times. Very tense, I think. <.sigh> So, I put on my happy face because I love her and don't want anything else to mar this for her. (Not that she's entirely right, nor is my aunt entirely wrong. But still.)

I don't see JC on this Faking the Video. ::frowns:: Even the SunTimes told me he was on. Maybe he's the "Him" they're talking about that I didn't notice. <.g> Except I'd think I'd recognize his voice. Oh , well. He'll be there sometime.

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Tornado warning in effect, so this may end abruptly!

I got a rejection letter from SXU this weekend. It was the one school I honestly thought I had a good chance of getting into. I know three of the staff members, two of which who are on the committee to choose students, and they wanted me. But it didn't happen, and if it didn't happen here, I don't think it can happen.

So, I need to reconsider all my options. As it stands now, I can think of being a teacher, librarian, journalist, or editor. Just, you know, thinking about what I enjoy doing and have at least some experience with. But I need to talk to people and find out options and it's really kinda scary except I'm okay with it.

Had an 8 hour nsync marathon with Jess last night (8pm to 3am) plus a few hours this morning. LOL! I'm a little nsynced out. But, oh, what glorious fun we had laughing hysterically! Mocking and adoring and mocking some more. <.g> I love those boys. So amusing and talented and sweet and funny and dorky. They make me smile.

I got rid of all my XFiles and Buffy videos and books. Sadness. But I have Xena Season 1 on DVD now!

Last week, my top drive didn't want to work. And last night, Real PLayer wouldn't. Now they both seem to be back? I don't know. I'm still worried.

Extreme House Makeover makes me cry a lot.

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So, installed my new Norton. 38 adware things found. 6 deleted, but the other 32 I should manually do. This terrifies me. <.sigh> I may need to bring it in someplace, to be safe. And one wants me to uninstall kazaa! Dude, I may not use it often (once in the last year), but nearly all my mp3s are in that folder!!!! What do I dooooooooooooooooo?

Saw JC's ADIDAS video. Um, yeah. I love it, I think it's wicked cool, but I can't imagine seeing that on MTV at any time, let alone now. LOL!! But dude, loved it.

adware. help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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It's going to be 90 tomorrow. 90! It was in the 60s today. I'm getting whiplash, man.

Angel. Jooooooooooooooooooossssssssssssssssssssss! Why????? Meanie. <.pout> Not my favorite ending of a TV show.

Liss and I are going to make an appointment at Nordstrom Spa! Pedicures and facials. Wheeee! This is the summer of spas for me. June with Liss, July with Karey. And Karey and I are going to get hot stone massages. I am SO excited about that, I can't even begin to tell you. I'm not generally one for people touching me, but I'm trying to get over that. Feeling that blissed out has to help. <.g>

Next year. What on earth am I going to do? Seriously. What if I don't get in to grad school? I don't think I'll cry. I'll feel sad, but it won't be the end of everything. Then I'd look into teaching. I think I'll look into teaching before I hear from grad schools.

Shouldn't I have done this when I was 18? I feel like I'm doing a lot of things now I should have when I was 18. Better late then never, I guess.

Is teaching the job for me? Could I manage 18-30 kids, day in and day out? If I could, and I think I could, could I do it without terror before and after the work day? I get so freaked out before I do it, but am fine during. Is that a viable way to live my life? Would I get over it? Is this really what I want to do? Is speech what I want to do? I have no passion for it, but I have interest. Should I look for something where I have both, even if the passion is scary?

So torn. So torn. Ack!

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My clothing today:
One (1) white/green/tan striped knit tank
One (1) pair green capris
One (1) pair white keds
Three (3) raspberry latte stains (shirt)
Five (5) raspberry latte stains (capris)
Two (2) raspberry latte stains (keds)
Two (2) cream sauce drops (capris)

A lovely start to my week. The only thing I ate not on me today is chocolate peanut butter ice cream. (Mmmm.) And no, I didn't even trip. I was *walking and the latte...bounced.

Tonight starts Colonial House on PBS. I'm so excited. Love those shows. I think I'd like to participate in one. But wow, how hard and exhausted and scary it must be. I wonder if I could handle it.

I ordered an upgrade of Norton that will not only kill my viruses, but get rid of Ad- and Spyware. I love it! It's exactly what I need. I could have downloaded it tonight, but I worry about downloading. So it's being mailed to me. Safety and peace of mind for the same price!

Angel!! Spike! That one time! *That *one *time. Thank you, Joss. Thank you. I'll take it.

Nick Carter is adorable, but he rivals JC at inability to read TelePrompters. Aww, but Howie is dancing on stage. Cuteness.

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I can't remember the last time I wasn't totally exhausted. This is no fun.

Went to my parents' friends' son's communion party today. It was fun - Jess was there, and we hung out. Talked JC, made plans, all that good stuff. My kid and her family were there, too - they're also friends with my parents friends. She was so cute and so sweet and I love her smile. I was surprised by how much I enjoyed her parents, as well. Once I'm not working with their kid, I think my parents will spend more time with them. The dad, especially, was funny and snarky and sweet, and the mom and I talked Luke and Laura. <.g> So, yes. Think we'll have new family friends once the work aspect is gone.

JC's album is lovely to listen to in the shower, I gotta say. I was grooving and singing as I shampooed this morning. <.g> At one point, while it skipped to the next song (shuffle), I started chanting "100 Ways! 100 Ways!" and lo and behold, JC listened and began singing 100 Ways. I was impressed. <.g>

I'm feeling cute today. Swingy flouncy short black skirt, paired with one of my mom's black tanks with diagonal grey lines. With the lengths of both items, it looks like a 20s flapper dress. Really neat how that worked out. Also super comfy. I've been wearing more skirts lately. Guess I am a little bit girly. <.g> Just don't give a damn about makeup or other such annoyances.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HP3 commerical!!! So exciting.

Dad wants to know why I'm bitchy tonight. Well, I *hadn't been, but that got me pissy. I'm going up and down stairs, doing and getting whatever they want, looking things up for them, giving them my chair and kneeling on the floor while they use it, there should be no comments on my mood.

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Discover your Zodiac Personality @ Quiz Me

And fittingly enough, that is my zodiac sign. <.g> It's also pretty true.

I am fully exhausted. Don't think I'm getting enough sleep. Ooops. But I had another Sibshop today - it may have been the best one I've done. Some things weren't perfect, but overall I was pleased. The kids were wonderful and had a great time and I loved them all. And there was silly string, and I can't remember the last time I laughed so much as I did during that part.

On the Line will be on ABCFamily! May 25, I think. I'll have to watch. It's been years since I saw it, but dude. Lance. And Joey. On my TV. They're so cute.

I'm trying to make an index page for s-d (FINALLY) and am attempting to make it an image map thingie. So far, less than sucessful. But it's pretty, and eventually I'll make it bow to my will and do what it's supposed to. Perhaps if I looked up the directions instead of winging it. LOL

I have a body pillow! I sleep hugging a pillow, have for years, but never invested in a body pillow. And just as I was going to order a beautiful blue one from a catlogue, made with non-allergenic primaloft, my dad bought me one. LOL It was only $10, so yay! The one I was going to get was closer to $100. <.g> This one is soft and mushy, and I tend to prefer firmer pillows, but hey, it was cheap. <.g> It'll be fun.

I'm working on a Britney/Christina fic for a challenge now. It's hard! I've been writing boy pov for so long now. This is only my second femslash story ever - I tend to prefer men. LOL But I think it has promise. And it's good to get a new POV going. I remember in my writing class, I was the first person to write cross-gender main characters; everyone else stuck with their own gender. Wimps. ;)

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I think I wrote more stories when I posted here. I was so in the habit of recording everything, writing every day, and turning little incidents into stories, and now I'm not.

I was playing in my stats tonight, and saw that 91 people had read my latest trickyfish story since I posted it last night. Wicked cool, man. I don't expect that. But it was 8 people less than how many visited my posts here from April 2002 so far this month. LOL How funny is that?

My kid shaved her eyebrows last night. When you think of a litle kid doing that, you think missing eyebrows. Not so much. She actually had a deft hand and a good line. <.g> Wouldn't have known if her mom hadn't said something, seriously. She still had more eyebrows than the SLP has on a typical day. <.giggle>

I never really got the eyebrow plucking thing. I've never done it. I'm lucky in that I don't need to, I guess. LOL But even if I looked like Bert, I couldn't imagine pulling out individual hairs. Or having thread weaved through them and then being pulled out by some lady's teeth. Haven't we moved past such medieval* tortures?? <.g>

*Did you know that medieval is Latin for Middle Ages? We're doing a middle ages unit at centers, and I thought that was interesting. Also, we call letters UPPER CASE or lower case because of where the letters were in 19th century printing press boxes. Capital letters were used less often and were therefore in the upper case, off the table and out of the way. Cool, huh? So endeth the day's history lesson.

Today, I proudly made AppleWorks calendar template my bitch. It took a few days, and a lot of growls, and some threats to it's computerhood, but I did it. I'm such a top. ;) I was proud of myself.

There are some days I wonder if my mom knows about this site and/or reads it, and other days I don't even want to consider that possibility. <.g> Oh, well. I think she already knows I read nsync slash. Don't know about her, but I vividly recall the day she came in on me reading Rhys's "Two Straight Men in Wisconsin: The Amazing Adventures of Chris's Cock." ("No, mom, it's not pornography! It's FUNNY. It's just a very very funny title for a story about Chris and Lance. Really.") She very kindly hasn't mentioned it since, however. There isn't much on here she doesn't already know, anyway. I think it's just the fannish things she doesn't know. And frankly, she doesn't want to know those things - I know, she's said so. So, I just spent five minutes talking in circles because whether she reads or not, I don't care. Just if you do, mom, no twitting about the pretty boys. ;)

I rather feel like sewing. Only I also rather feel like reading, and I can't do both. Hmm. Decisions, decisions.

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I had a fun, relaxing Lead Awareness Day yesterday. : ) Thanks for all the kind notes and cards! {{HUGS}}

Kids were all cute and sweet yesterday. I got so many nice cards, some that obviously took a lot of time and effort. They sang to me and ate cupcakes and were quite adorable all day.

I got the neatest gifts, too! A shower clock/radio/CD player so I don't lose track of time in the mornings, PhotoImpact graphics program, Buffy S3, Singing in the Rain, and the abridged RENT soundtrack for the car. Ease of listening. <.giggle> I'm so excited! I've been playing with PI a lot, and I've been making my own pictures. My mom was laughing at how bouncy I was, showing off my moons and landscapes and thunderstorms. LOL!

Today we went to Naper Settlement. It was SO FUN. I adore that place. Still haven't been inside the mansion, though - they've been working in it for many years, and it just opened a few months ago. But we didn't have time for it. : ( So I need to go back sometime. On the bus, I entertained "my girls" with stories of what they did back then. ("Yes, they had fun! Yes, the girls had to be ladylike even playing.") They thought that was cool, and I had fun. Because heaven knows I like sharing things. LOL!

I wanna do a recap of my JC night! It was so fun. I never recapped Justin last summer, and I still regret that. So hopefully I can find time this week. It was a fabulous start to my birthday weekend, I gotta say. LOL

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Every time I load a new webpage, a popup pops up. What is with THAT? It's really making me cranky. I turned on my firewall; I thought I should be safe? All this started after the firewall. Grrrrr.

I can't believe that I'm seeing JC on Friday. That means Lead Awareness Day* is less than a week away, which is only 3 weeks from the wedding, which is only a few days from the last day of school, and WHERE DID THE YEAR GO?!?!?

I'm going to miss these kids something fierce. Four of 'em asked me today if I was going to third grade with my kid/them. Wahhhh! They are so cool and so special and I love them all. They all make me laugh. It's been a good year. A hard, challenging, stressful, crazy, wonderful year.

*I don't think I'll ever be able to refer to my birthday as anything but Lead Awareness Day. It'll never be not amusing to me. <.g>

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I've been reading the GH threads at Television without Pity for about 2 hours now. LOL I love these people. There's a bit more Lorenzo love than I feel, but I guess he's getting better. But all the mocking! It's lovely. And all the discussions of GH-past. I love it. I miss my show. : ( It's just so crappy lately, with few exceptions. I adore Mary/Nikolas, and Georgie/Dillon. The amount of love I have for Dillon is just so very wrong. Except I don't care. <.g>

Interesting talk of spoilers. Someone random has been posting on a different board about a "reset" of the show this summer. No reason to take it seriously, and I don't know how much faith I have in the idiot writers even if there was, but boy does it make my mind work overtime. LOL

6 days until I see JC! And now I have a friend to see him with, so yay! I think we'll have lots of fun. Two shows, one at 6pm and one at 10:45, and then overnight at the HOB Hotel.

And! I saw RENT last week!!! Talk about unholy love. It was fantastic and wonderful and I want to see it again and again and again. I wasn't crazy about "What You Own" or "La Vie Boheme," which sucks because those are two of my favorite songs, but "Tango: Maureen" was even better than I heard (thanks to the fabulous actress playing Joanne), and "Light My Candle" and "One Song Glory" were wonderful. Good times.

Eleven days until Lead Awareness Day! I need a countdown here. <.g>

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