Blue Roses

So I don't get to leave speech after all. Gah!!!!! It's all just killing me. Every bit of it. I don't know up from down anymore, and I certainly can't make any good decisions. I can barely decide what to watch on TV these days.

Hilary says that she's doing library science and it feels like she's a round peg in a round hole. And geez, that's all I want. Something that feels like a fit. Right now I more feel like I'm a square peg going into a rectangular hole, or something. It's close, maybe, but not the right place. But like I said, I don't even know what I want to watch on TV these days.

I'm on a huge Queer as Folk kick these days - it's my escape. <.g> A well written and acted soap opera featuring mostly sexy men - what else can a girl want?! It's sure 1000xs better than GH these days. I'm so disgusted by the misogynistic garbage that it keeps spewing on my screen. (I have far fewer troubles deciding not to watch this show. <.g>) I rented QaF S1 again - watched the first 8 eps last week and will grab the next two discs tomorrow. If only video stores carried later seasons!! Showtime just finished airing S4, and I've still only seen S1! It is to cry.

Kare e-mailed me tonight saying how crappy she felt about a friend who was ignoring her e-mails and texts and all. Dude. All I could offer was, "am there, doing that." It utterly sucks to be ignored by people you thought were friends. I guess I'm feeling a little lonely lately, and so that hit home more. PLus my Jennie has disappeared on me, her cell isn't on and her apartment phone goes to machine, and I miss her. : ( I'm sure she's just at home, enjoying her sibs, but I always worry. <.g>

30 minutes until Ken Jennings on Jeopardy! I love him.