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September 27, 2002

quizzes

Because it's been awhile, Meegan. <.g>






Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By Growing.

Joyous trumpets and champagne supernovas! You are 80% rock-solid friend!

The Three Musketeers. The Three Amigos. The Three Horsemen of the Apocalypse? you belong, dude, you belong! Some people put their neck on the line for their friends; you put your ass on the line. And by the way, nice ass. People know they can count on you in a crunch, in a jam, and in other food metaphors describing times of desperation. You give the gift of hope, but more importantly, you give the gift of kidney. Your rewards in life will be great, or at least better than other people's. To quote a fortune cookie: "You are soon have a fortunate experiences."

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(I said I would sleep with Lance, as did 17, 554 other women, but Justin is actually #5 at the Spark in general. LOL)

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Which *NSYNC Concert Are You

You are a Princess! Lovely, Innocent, Charming!

As a Princess you recognize there is so much about the world you need to learn. You may sometimes be naive but other times you are wise beyond your years! You are sharp, observant, joyous, and interested in your own personal growth. You have a very caring heart, and are a sweet and beautiful woman.

September 26, 2002

story rec

Read a cool story today! HP, Lavender/Parvati, Real Methods of Divination. PG, slash-ish, so sweet and adorable. They find their best friend in each other. Loved it!

Jennie-girl!!

I've been informed I need to update. <.g> So, here I am.

Exam recap: Tuesdays went well, except for the essay. Got it back today - missed 4 points on m/c, 17 on essay. <.groan> Yeah. Wednesdays went better than it did last year. Todays? Yeah, well, there will be more tests. Hopefully I'll do better then.

This weekend ROCKED!!!! I went to get Jennie Saturday night. We got dinner and her Dr Pepper, then came back to watch baby!sync with Kate - Reel Nsync (Oh, my God, laughed SO HARD. It really makes a difference if you watch it vs. just listening, as I did my first time) and *n the mix. Much fun!!

Sunday, we all hung out in the living room. Jennie wrote a story, Kate and I studied. As we listened to, um, nsync's Christmas album. LOL And Linda Eder's "It's No Secret Now," which I burned a copy of. Love it! But mostly nsync. Although Linda is what got Kate and I planning an interesting little nsync story. LOL It's gonna be hysterical when we get around to writing it. <.g>

Then, later that night, the Emmys weren't interesting us much. And all along we had planned to try this drink J and I had read about - Dr P with SoCo. So. Kate proposed a drinking game to the Madison Square Garden concert. This is what we looked for:
JC bouncing
JC being "Happy"
Justin's sweaty knees
Justin calling attention to himself
Chris's Glare of Hotness
Actually hearing Joey
Lance's dorky dance moves

We then added Kate going, "Oh, he's so CUTE!" about JC, me going, "Oh! You can hear Lance!" and Jennie going, "Oh, fuck." Those got the most drinks. LOL

In the middle of this, after we've all finished the first drink and moved onto Malibu and coke, Kate remembers that she needs to record a conversation for her writing class. You know, the one I took last year? <.g> I've included that below, hope it's okay with you, Kate! I can take it down if you want it on your blog instead. <.g> But I'm S and Jennie is N, because I refused to let Kate identify me by my real name. Since, you know, her professor KNOWS me. LOL It's absolutely hysterical, IMO. <.g> Even if a bit humiliating if John ever finds out it's me. LOL

So then we all decide to go to bed around 12:30, since we have class in the morning. Jennie goes to her couch, Kate goes to bed, I go to my computer to check up on mail that I haven't done all weekend. I hear random squeakage, but mostly disregard. Kate knocks on my door. "You awake?" "Yeah." "Do you hear squeaking?" "Yeah! You hear it too?" "What IS it?" Jennie calls out, "I think it's bed springs!" "YES!" Kate and I chorus, and collapse giggling. (Bear in mind, it's 12:30am and we're still tipsy. LOL) We're cracking up, Jennie included, and then Kate goes, "Oh, my gosh, it's speeding up!" That kills us. LOL Anyway, it stops, and we go back to bed, giggly. Then five minutes later it starts again, and Kate's like, "Oh, NO!" LOL It continued for awhile, happened again the next night, and once at noon. It's amusing, but MAN, annoying when trying to go to sleep. LOL

So what else? Monday we went to classes and watched Justin on TRL, which was HIGHLY amusing. I adore that boy now. Found exclusive clips from Justin's album. I like Right For Me, but What You Got is too busy. Which is a shame, because I like the lyrics. LOL Oh, well. Still excited about the album. I've mostly liked all that I heard, definitely enough to pass the "three songs" test I give every album. Not that he needed to pass it, given that he's an nsync member, and I'd buy anything from them based on loyalty alone, but it's a good sign. <.g>

Jennie left at 5:30am on Tuesday, which started the whole exam trip I've been on. She saw Rent Tuesday night, and got Joey's autograph. EEEEEE!!!!!!! Lucky lucky girl!! I really want to go - I checked out tickets, and if I order now, Kate and I can get 7th row, near center, $91 each with tax and mailing. I think that's pretty good. So. Just need to find money fast, and I can do it! ::bounce::

So, that's my update. LOL I'll try to be better about posting in the future. : )

S (Rina): Oh, did you see the look between JC and Lance? They were so cute!
N (Jennie): Joey's hot. In more ways than one. This, this actually played a factor in the whole "this song making me melt" thing.
S: Pretty boys!
N: Very pretty boys!
S: Justin's very pretty.
N: So is JC. They're all very pretty.
S: Lance in leather!!
N: Did you hear my three-part harmony moan there? JC's voice is so pretty.
S: Not so much alcohol! I need to be coordinated in was you don't tomorrow morning.*
N: According to AJ, there's a bit about JC, Justin and Jive.
S: All that could mean is that JC wanted to do a solo album.
N: I want them all to do a solo album!
S: I don't know. I don't know if I could handle all Chris. It depends on what range he sings in.
N: But Chri-hi-hi-his!
S: And Joey - I'd be happy if he did a cast album of RENT.
N: I just want Joey to do something where I can hear his voice a lot.
S: Oh my gosh, look at that boy screaming! He's like seventeen or eighteen.
N: He's a gay little boy. He has a crush on JC!
S: He does. Ohhh... Digital Getdown!
N: Can I tell you how disconcerting it is to have your 12-year-old sister have Digital Getdown in her head?
S: This is a hard song to dance to. Oh! Glare of Hotness! Drink, Jennie, drink! Oh! Stage Lick! That deserves a drink!
N: I missed it.
S: You missed JC licking the stage! Rewind.
N: Oh, hotness.
S: Definitely. Glare of Hotness. And it looks like Lance and Justin are pointing to each other for "You know what I like."
N: Does that mean Lance and Justin are leaving each other phone sex messages?
S: Yep. Ooh! Bouncing JC! Drink! He's bouncing. And Justin's drumming. How cute.
N: I'm going to be whooping pretty soon. In fact, I feel myself very close to te drunken state where I'm going to start randomly whooping. It's an aggie thing.
S: Is this Bye-Bye-Bye already? What happened to Game is Over?
N: That's in PopOdyssey.
S: Oh, yeah. Oooh, JC grabbing himself.
N: Whoop!
S&N: (singing along to Bye-Bye-Bye)
S: Lance grabbing himself!
S&N: Glare of Hotness!
N: Whoop!
S: See that's in Making the Tour. Josh watches that scene a lot. I see a lot of the Glare of Hotness.
N: Lance is cute, doing that little hip roll, a little butt shake.
S&N: (singing) BAYBEE!!
S: Lance! I heard Lance!
N: Drink. They're all sweaty. Makes me want to lick. JC first, but they all are.
S: Lance isn't. He probably doesn't throw himself into it as much. Oh! JC is happy! Really happy! See? Oh, he moved.
N: That was fun. What are we gonna watch now?

*[ed note: she has tap-dance class in the morning]

September 19, 2002

oh, my God, we're back again

Whoooo! s-d is back up! The lovely Kristine moved us off our old host and into a new, much better one. Kate and I are so excited. LOL

So, yes. We're alive! Jennie's coming to visit on Saturday for a few days, and I have three exams next week, so now that I've popped up to announce my aliveness, I'm about to head underground again. <.g>

::waves:: See you on the other side! Or, you know, when I REALLY don't want to study anymore.

September 12, 2002

sorry, Karey

Okay. So Karey came on after that last post, and found me quite depressed and insecure. I was really, really upset. And she tried so hard to make me feel better before ultimately whacking me upside the head and calling me an idiot for doubting myself. <.g> And we had to just leave it there (after she made me smile with a little SDB drabble <.giggle>), because my mom was on and mom and I had the same reaction to my scores. I had gone to individual college's pages to find their GRE requirements, but none had them up. So I e-mailed a few places. She went to Ask Jeeves to see about GREs and grad schools.

So, with my scores, I can't get into Harvard, the #2 grad school in the country. But I can get into UCLA, the #3 grad school. And unfortunately, they only gave the top three schools' info for free, and my top choice, Columbia University's Teacher College, is #4. LOL But hey, I can get into UCLA. Things could be worse.

So, Karey, sorry for doubting you. You were right. My scores weren't bad. (Which doesn't mean I wouldn't have preferred at least a 650-700 in verbal, or that I don't know I could have attained that with proper focus, but what I ended up with wasn't as bad as it could have been.) So, yay! Thanks, dearie. {{HUGS}}

Meanwhile, she linked me up with an AWESOME trickyfish story called Green, which I had read before, but not saved, and I love it! So sweet and funny, and adorable. So, if you like nsync slash, go read! (Trickyfish is Chris/Lance, for those going, "Hunh?!" <.g>)

well, it's done

Well, took me just over two hours. They said four! Well, I didn't have a practice section, and I opted out of the research, which is I guess how. So. The story.

I got there early. Chatted with another girl taking it. Received a lovely text message from Jennie that made me smile. Went to sign in. Almost was unable to take the test, due to my State ID being expired. I swear I almost burst into tears on the spot. But she called ETS and they allowed me, which is practically unheard of. Thank God for my guardian angel, huh? {{HUGS}}

So, I took it. Now, anyone know how to score a GRE? LOL I have NO idea if my numbers are any good. Each section, though, is out of 800. So I got a 600 verbal, 580 quantitative and 580 analytic. Which is odd, as I had thought I totally bombed the verbal and did well in math. LOL But my advisor said 1000 was the minimum, and that's what Jill got, and all added up, mine equal 1760. Am I adding the wrong things? But even if I only added up two of them, any combination is still greater than 1000. So is that good? Am I deluding myself? Help!

I'm going to search out some grad school's GRE requirements, see what I find. I'll let you all know. <.g>

edit: Okay, so the verbal/quantitative should be at least 1000. Mine is 1180. So, that's not too bad, I guess. Actually, pretty comparable to my SAT scores. Which I've always disliked. Oops. So, okay, getting frustrated here. I don't like my scores, and I can't find a minimum GRE on any of the school sites where I want to apply. Damn it, I'm mad now.

whimper

Well, here it is. T-1.5 hours until the GRE. <.sigh> I'm eating brain food (tuna, pasta and applesauce), listening to brain music (or, well, I will be. First I wanna listen to the fun Xena song at the end of Lyre Lyre), and trying to relax.

I'm scared. But more in the resigned way of yesterday than the terror portion of last night. I don't know. I want to do well, everyone is telling me that I will do well. but I just can't believe it. I never really do, though.

I kinda wish I had did more with the program. But honestly, what I did do was pretty easy. I'm pretty sure I learned all of the tricks it offered, and all the practice bits did was make me feel like I didn't need to practice, as it was easy. Jill got a 1000, and said the practice hadn't seemed easy and the test was hard, and 1000 is an okay score for getting in, still. So that could be good. PLus, the software said that the math is easier than the SAT and the verbal harder, and that's my perfect combination.

So. Gonna leave at 8. Be there by 8:30. Check in. Start the test at 9. Be back for GH definitely, OLTL probably. Relax. Download Justin stuff. Possibly nap.

For now, I need to eat. Eating is good. I'm not used to this big a breakfast, though. LOL

Wish me luck!

September 11, 2002

9/11

I can't believe it's been a full year. Sometimes it feels like so much longer, other times it feels like yesterday. Either way, it's still so clear.

I had a late class. I woke up at 8:15, grumbly because what had woken me up was Kate and Sarah running up and down the stairs and hall, talking loudly. I went over to my computer, sat down, and was bombarded from IMs from my mother and Kate, asking if I had on MSNBC. Of course I didn't, I was barely seeing yet. I turned it on quickly, and didn't leave my TV all day.

I remember posting frantically, terrified about my father working in downtown Chicago, and about all my friends who lived in NYC. Amy, I knew, lived across the street from WTC. I had no idea where she was. I remember Krissy IMed me, and said that she had read it on my blog first, that she had thought it was a WW fic I was reading. We spent the whole day together, watching coverage. The University didn't cancel classes, but I didn't go. I didn't know what was going to happen next, and I needed to know about my friends.

I missed the planes crashing, but I saw the Pentagon. I almost, but did not, miss the first tower crumbling, because my VCR kicked on to record Sports Night, my favorite episode (Dear Louise), and I had to actually think about if I should let it keep taping or turn it off. I ran into Kate's room to see what was happening and saw the tower go. I ran back into my room to stop the tape. I never did get that episode on tape.

MSNBC is about to start airing footage of the planes again, of the towers going down. I'm not sure I can handle that again. It got to the point last year, when those images were repeated so often, that I couldn't go to sleep at night. I'm not sure I understand why they have to show us again and again. Like any of us will ever forget? I can't imagine that anyone wants to see this again. That's not hiding from what happened, it's just not needing to see a photo of fireman carrying out a dead chaplain. We know it happened, it's real, it's horrific and sad, but it's also still raw.

My thoughts and prayers are with everyone who lost people last year. If this is hard for me, someone who doesn't even live in one of the places or lost a loved one, how can they feel today? I'm thinking especially of a friend who lost her best friend, who was photographed jumping from a tower. I haven't heard from her in so very long, and I miss her. Love you, Meg. {{HUGS}}

September 10, 2002

what I learned

Ten things I learned today:

1. I should never wear my tiny grey tee with these overall shorts. Because, well, tiny. Everyone knows what color my underwear are now. (Dark blue, in case you were curious.)

2. Lance weighs 80kg (about 180), which is a fairly significant amount above me. Whoo! I always worried that three members of nsync weighed less than I do. Pride. But now it's actually probably only JC. (Yes! Because while insanely doing a stupid search, learned that Justin is 172 pounds. JC is either 150 or 160, or at least he was when 22. So, hey, could be a lot worse! LOL I'd say I'm about equal with JC, except I think he lost weight since then.)

3. My internet connection desperately needs to be fixed. It started in August when I moved in with D. He had to have done something when trying to fix my internet.

4. One will always find cool wallpapers mere days after making their own.

5. Even really cool and funny and sweet teachers give sneaky and horrible quizzes.

6. Justin's! Little! FACE! is addictive and adorable.

7. Today is not Wednesday, honestly. Okay, I'm still trying to learn that. I can't keep it straight!

8. Just because something seems really complicated at first, doesn't mean it can't be simplified in an enjoyable way with a date analogy.

9. My GRE is at 9am, and not 11. This, I feel, is very important.

10. Stuffed animals can cure almost anything.

wow

I have, seriously, the most amazing friends. I'm sure I've mentioned the nail polish and JC pic from Alicia. And random nsync and QaF stuff. And now. Just. Wow.

Karey built me a bunny! He's in a leather jacket, with leather pants, and he was born August 18, 2002, and his name is Po Presley. And he has a guitar. And he and she made me cry. But happy tears! And there was also a copy of Elvis's Gospel CD.

Really can't stress how wonderful my friends are. Karey, man, you rock. Love ya! {{HUGS}}

September 08, 2002

so, yes.

Well, some things are getting done. LOL I'm nearly done with Lolita. I'm basically skimming now - I just don't like it! He had me up through the end of part one. (There are two.) I am an open minded person. I read anything. I don't squick easily. I am mightily squicked here. I just. Ewwww. LOL I'll go see the movie, but I'm not caring to discuss it. Right now, anyway. I may skip class tomorrow. Watch, um, the premiere of Justin's video instead. Or I might go to class, which will be quite abbreviated if existant at all, and watch the video later with Jennie. Decisions, decisions.

I know more for my quiz. Probably not as much as I should, but I have tomorrow, as well. All that's really left is the GRE. And, well. Not wanting to do it. I don't know why! I want to do well, I need to do well, and I just can't bring myself to study.

I made wallpapers, though. Right now, I'm using Rent Boy, which I adore. I have two others, though, and two more in progress. The two done ones are up on my Zoo page.

But. The fact (truth? LOL) remains that I need to study. So. Yes. Really. Why do I feel it won't happen?

September 07, 2002

recap

So. I'm unemployed. Not surprised. But I do have a job there in January again.

I bought tap shoes! They're rather cute. Thanks, Kate. : )

I also bought a super cute pink and orange (generally my two least favorite colors. Ha) striped shirt. It's a size small and it fits perfectly! That'll never happen again. <.g> Well, actually, now I have two size small shirts that I adore and look good. It's a trend I plan to encourage. The shirt was also 25 cents, BTW.

I saw Joey on the Celebirty Golf thing. He was SO. Freaking. Hysterical! Oh, my God, he had me in stitches. Did I tape? No, no. I gave in and hit record as they were firing him as coach. They got Chris instead, but they never showed Chris! I was quite sad. But the entire tournament was hysterical and awesome. Love Chi McBride.

This morning, the internet was out, and I studied for my quiz on Tuesday. It's for my voice class, but the first section is a review of 375, the class I'm retaking now, the anatomy. I learned things!! I know the extrinisiclaryngeal muscles and their functions. Now to learn the intrinsic and the last 2 pages of the chapter. ::nods:: But hey, it's a start.

Tonight I need to do some GRE stuff. Unless I just work on anatomy tonight and do the GRE tomorrow. That might make more sense. Just get this all over with. Also on my to do list is to finish Lolita and type up more of my JC/Lance/Joey story. Which will be one year in December that I'm writing it. LOL Hopefully I'll be done with it by then! LOL

So. Tonight is really all about the quiz, and most likely fun story stuff. However, food should enter into that at some point, as well. And new Trading Spaces is on. And I rather feel like watching Once More with Feeling. (Waiting impatiently for the real soundtrack of that to come out!!) So. Yeah. At some point, need to make myself buckle down again. <.g> I'm just so unused to all this free time! LOL

September 06, 2002

eeeek

Well, today's the day. I find out if I still have a job for th rest of the semester. I desperately, desperately want to keep it, but I have a feeling it's a no. I dont know why. So I guess we'll see. But send me some happy thoughts, please! Man, I don't even know how long I'm working today. From 8 until 5 or 8. Sucky.

I am SO TIRED. No matter what, I get to sleep in this weekend. There will be much sleeping this weekend. And GRE studying and quiz studying, as my first one is on Tuesday. That's probably the extent of what I'll do, outside of buying tap shoes. <.g>

Well, I can't keep my eyes open, and everything is still totally blurry, but I'm gonna go try and read new Lucy-fic. Maybe that will wake me up. LOL

September 03, 2002

bad me

I'm about to be a bad girl. <.g> I have an assignment due Friday. 375, the repeat offendor class. I'm on the tail end of a 50 hour work week. I barely have the ability to keep my eyes open to study for the GRE. In fact, I haven't so far.

So. Would anyone like to be my new best friend and find me three articles on the skeletal system? If I get them by Thursday night, I can do my little summaries and turn them in on Friday. <.g> http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/PubMed is a good place to start. LOL

**Smooches!**

bad me

I'm about to be a bad girl. <.g> I have an assignment due Friday. 375, the repeat offendor class. I'm on the tail end of a 50 hour work week. I barely have the ability to keep my eyes open to study for the GRE. In fact, I haven't so far.

So. Would anyone like to be my new best friend and find me three articles on the skeletal system? If I get them by Thursday night, I can do my little summaries and turn them in on Friday. <.g> http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/PubMed is a good place to start. LOL

**Smooches!**

My poor boy

Awwww! My mom greeted me this morning with "Your boy isn't going. : (" What's sad is that I knew exactly what she meant when she referred to my boy, and where he wasn't going.

Lance has been asked to leave Star City, and a cargo package will be sent in his place. That's, like, adding insult to injury. So very sad!! Stupid money issues.

She said that all the news stations covered it in their news section,but I of course can't find it anywhere. In fact, it took me a few minutes to even find CNN (I got distracted by finding Joe Scruggs first <.g>). I did find articles, though. One is below in the more section.

Mom was cracking up, because I was so mad on his behalf. I said he'd been working hard, was pale and thinner and was non-sparkly! She was like, "Non-sparkly?" <.g> But yes! Non-sparkly. <.g>

Oh, geez, CNN said there was something....an earthquake?...near Loma Linda, CA. Are the Beesons okay? Drop me a note sometime today and let me know, Lady K. Won't read it until after 10 freaking pm, but I'll want to come back to it. : )

And now off to get dressed! How on earth did I get up at the same time as yesterday, when I have to leave half an hour earlier, and be running...oh, shoot, I'm leaving half an hour earlier. That explains things. Crap. LOL

'N Sync star's space trek scrapped
September 3, 2002 Posted: 6:41 AM EDT (1041 GMT)

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MOSCOW, Russia (Reuters) -- Russia's space agency has scrapped 'N Sync singer Lance Bass's plans to
join an October space mission after the U.S. pop star failed to meet payment deadlines, an agency
spokesman said.

Bass, 23, who would have become the youngest ever person in space, has been told to leave Russia's
Star City cosmonaut training centre outside Moscow, where he had been preparing to join a mission
to the International Space Station (ISS).

"After failing to fulfil the conditions of his contract, Lance Bass has been told that his training
at the Cosmonaut Training Centre has ended and that his flight to the ISS is impossible," spokesman
Sergei Gorbunov told Reuters.

"We are preparing to send a cargo container to the ISS instead of a third crew member."

He added: "Bass is now at Star City, gathering his stuff and preparing to leave."

Bass, backed by a consortium of companies rounded up by a Hollywood producer, had already missed
initial deadlines to come up with a reported $20 million.

U.S. space authorities had also expressed worries that the star was ill-prepared for the flight,
though cash-strapped Russia said it needed the fee to service its fleet of Soyuz craft.

He would have been the third space enthusiast to pay his way into space after U.S. millionaire
Dennis Tito and South African entrepreneur Mark Shuttleworth.

The October Soyuz taxi mission will now go ahead with Russian commander Sergei Zalyotin and Belgian
flight engineer Frank DeWinne.


September 02, 2002

long day coming

I'm alive, really. Had three hysterical freak-outs, and one mild panic attack, and a few hours of near depression, all in one afternoon, but hey, here. Physically, at least. LOL

So. Working a lot. I think I'll have about 50 hours this week. Plus 17 hours of classes. More if I go to Kate's jazz class. Which I think I won't, but will tell my boss I am. Of course, now that I said that, I'll tell her I'm going and actually go.

Terrified about the GRE. But I can't bring myself to practice. PLease, God, let me test well this one last time.

Freaked about classes. Hate 375. Met a sweet girl last Thursday, though. Hopefully gonna ride with her to and from lab. I just walked up to her after class (after a disastrous time getting there on the bus. I fucking followed the directions, and I swear to God she drove right back in front of where she picked me up 45 minutes earlier before actually going to my building ::steams::) and said, "Hi, did you drive today? Oh, good. You don't know me, but can you drive me home?" She could and did. I think her name is Jill. Maybe Jo. She appreciates my nsyncness as a quirk. (I had to pull out a notebook to give her my e-mail and phone #. She also saw the watch.)

Justin was cool on the VMAs. Solid performance, even though I somehow expected more. Something more special. But he did wonderfully.

Have cable again. In my room. Yay! I could be watching Xena now. But it's too much effort to get the remote. Which is behind me on the bed. I'm in a swivel chair. I am lazy.

I bought a weekly planner, put in all my assignments, and color coded it. It doesn't look as scary now. My sweet Jennie-girl is written in with sparkly purple ink, and there is purple all over my blue (aka test)-filled week. ACK! She's coming in midterms. <.g> Oh, well. She can help me study. We'll still have the best time.

Now that I've checked in, I'm gonna go to sleep now. LOL I have about 6 hours of classes, plus 8 hours of work. Kill me now? Or send hugs. Both appreciated.