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September 30, 2004

wintery

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Quite appropriate for me, really, given my obsession with the idea of snow. LOL

I'm feeling all pink today. Pink sweater, pink shoes, pink pearls, So Pink body spray. <.g> I feel all cute and cheery. Except for the way that I'm struggling to stay awake, but yeah. The *outfit is cute and cheery and that's good enough for me!

I haven't played Sims in days. I'm itching to get back into the game! I wanna get more couples going and kids and new generations. I also wish to figure out a way for Sim!me to marry into the Blythe family, preferably with a grandson also named Gilbert. <.g> This is proving a challenge, as Rilla is quite madly in love with Ginny Weasley and Jem is, uh, not the cutest thing in the world. LOL! Which is shallow and all, but Gil is so cute and I want a cute Gil of my own. I'm thinking of trying to introduce Jem to this cute hippie named Lucy and seeing what happens with them. That could work. <.g> Will take time, but being Rina Blythe will make up for it in my game world.

/end utter insanity ;)

September 28, 2004

long ass day

It's been such a long day! I got here at 9am (leaving my house just after 8) for two meetings, even though I don't have class until 6:30. Eeek! But anyway, it's been pretty productive - I figured out my part in a group presentation next week (which I'm actually quite looking forward to), ate lunch, read some of my book, went to another meeting where I got assigned to do research on speech for kids who are deaf and cochlears, which, of course, is basically all that I learned on the job last year. I have resources to hit, yay! So that's cool. Then back to the computer lab where I did an assignment not due until November - go ME! I'm all on top of things.

For now, anyway, until the next wave of panic comes crashing down on me. <.g> That will likely be tonight, when I'm beyond exhausted (not home until after 10pm) and feeling terrified about therapy tomorrow.

I still have three hours before class. I'm thinking I might go read the article that's due for Neuro next week. That should make me feel better tonight.

September 24, 2004

family time

I blocked the IPs of the annoying comment spammers. Blissful quiet!

Last Thursday, I went out to dinner with my parents - just my parents - for the first time in five years. It was, I think, the second time in nearly 16 years. See, one of us has always had to be home with Josh. So mom and dad have gone out to eat, and dad and I have, but mom and I never and the three of us only on my 18th birthday before we saw Titanic the musical. But! Now Josh has a respite worker who comes a few times a month. And so I get to spend time with my parents.

Today, Megan came to stay with Josh and mom and I went shopping for two hours!! We hit the Gap (I got an adorable brown print skirt that is totally 1940s, with three cute clingy tops and the So Pink body spray which I LOVE, mom got a pair of pants, and Josh got two sweaters), browsed several stores, got some lunch, and bought me the cutest stationery in the world that was also fairly expensive EEEEK. LOL But wow, it was so much fun! We haven't done that in over 10 years - we used to take an hour or two to go Christmas shopping when I was in junior high, but mom was always super anxious to get home and so it was never really fun. Just lots of running and dragging. But this, this was so cool.

Then tonight, the three of us went out to dinner (PIE!) while Josh was at social club. It's so weird spending time with them. LOL But weird in a good way. It's fun.

September 23, 2004

comment spam/Sims 2

Is there a way to block certain people who post comments? Two days ago I got 500 comment spams from one person, and tonight I've gotten several hundred from another. I blocked their e-mails in OE, so I at least don't get the notifications anymore, but I want them off my website. ::frowns::

School continues apace. It's going to start getting busier, though - Tuesday I'm stuck there for 14 hours. I am NOT happy about this.

I adore my new Sims 2 game. I am so addicted. So far, I only have two familes - the Blythes (Anne, Gilbert, twins Rilla and Jem) and the Weasleys (Ron, Hermione, Ron's daughter Ginny, and their son Will). Details on their stories below. <.g>

I'm impatiently waiting for nsync and Britney skins to pop up so I can get them back in my game! I wanna see how the chips fall this time. <.g> (Last time being Chris/Justin, Joey/Lance, Joey/Rina and Lance/Britney. Poor JC got the shaft!)

Anne and Gil were my first pair. I was unsure as to where to start playing, and the first female sim came up with two red braids. It had to be done. <.g> So Anne has family aspirations, while Gil has knowledge.

From day one, Anne's main, constant goal was to have kids. Gil's varied from day to day, but one day, having kids popped up for him, too, and I locked it. They had a small house, one bedroom, but it was perfect for me to moev them about in. <.g> Then they decided to try for a baby, and an adition was built. Things went swell during the pregnancy, Gil was happy in his job, they just kept doing their happy things. Then came the delivery - TWINS. A boy and a girl named Jem and Rilla. They bought another crib and managed pretty well. Babyhood is easy here.

Then came toddlerhood. Here's a nice bit of foreshadow - the night the twins became toddlers, Anne lost track of dinner and the kitchen burst into flames.

The twins were demons! Anne and Gil never had a moment to sleep, Gil had to quit his job, the nanny was ineffectual. She was holding a screaming Rilla, pissed off that she couldn't get Rilla into the high chair, when all the kid wanted was a bath. Rilla, thankfully, ended up learning how to talk, but neither learned to walk or be potty trained. Actually, neither one ever got dressed, either. LOL A few times, I was yelled at for forgetting to feed the kids. But, well, honestly, I don't think Anne and Gil managed to eat during those few days, either.

it was sheer madhouse! Jem kept crawling out of bounds, Rilla kept playing in the toilet, and Anne and Gil couldn't keep up. Nor could I. By this point, it was Anne's greatest fear was that she have another child. I was so thankful when the kids grew up into children.

Things went slightly better then. Although the night it happened, Gil lost track of dinner and the kitchen burned, while he sobbed. This made me nervous, but it worked outt. Rilla became an A student, but Jem kept losing his homework. Anne and Gil finally got to sleep. It was now both a want *and a fear that she would have another baby. They moved to a bigger house, which was a great deal of fun for me as I tried to figure out how to build and remodel.

WHat drove me nuts was the illnessess - Gil kept getting food poisoning from stupidly eating old food, and Anne and the kids kept coming down with the flu. There was always a mad dash to the bathroom to throw up. Every time I got them well, they got sick again. When they started exercising, it got better, but oh my gosh, getting them to exercise!! They were never in the mood. Thankfully, that phase passed.

Oh! And once, Gil got this bee in his bonnet to get Rilla into a private school. So he invited the headmaster over. But, as events unfolded, he and Anne decided to get it on. (First time since the twins were born.) They had quite a bit of fun then. But it took rather longer than either expected, and the headmaster was coming in half an hour. So Anne ran to cook, but never changed into clothes. So she's cooking in her pink undies while Gilbert throws out the steaming remnants of breakfast and lunch. The headmaster comes while Anne is still cooking, and Gil manages to tour the same room twice, thereby annoying the guy. Gil hurredly ushers him to dinner the moment Anne finishes, and they get 37 meal points. But, while he's eating, Anne decides to charm him. Gil is standing right there, and utterly *flips out.* He slaps Anne, falls out of love, and bursts into tears. Anne is desperately trying to woo him back, reassure him with hugs and kisses and flirts, and both utterly ignore the headmaster. I tried to get Rilla to play nice with him, but she completely refused to interact with him. Jem just played the piano the whole time.

Needless to say, Rilla did not get into private school.

Soon after, Jem and Rilla grew into teens. At this point, I stopped playing the Blythes so I could make some more teens for Jem and Rilla to meet.


I built Ron and Hermione as roomies, with Ginny as his teenage daughter. (Closest I could come to a sibling.) Three story house, second story being only R/H's bedrooms and a bathroom, so they didn't spend much time there, but Ginny's room was the entire third floor. She has a TV, phone, bar, computer, books, chaise, bathroom, etc. It's like her own apartment. Ron's aspiration was family, Hermione's knowledge, and Ginny's popularity.

Ron and Hermione didn't seem to get along much at first. They would talk, briefly, and that was about it. One would get pissy and walk away. Ginny got frustrated with both of them easily. But then, Ron and Ginny's biggest want was to become best friends with each other, so that passed.

Anne and Gil came over to welcome them to town. Anne and Ginny hit it off perfectly, while Gil and Ron were fast friends. Hermione read a book.

Ron got a job as a team mascot, while Hermione continued to learn everything she could. Ginny's an A+ student. She's smart, but she LOVES to have fun. Her favorite thing to do in the morning is dance while Hermione or Ron cooks breakfast. One day, Ron was cooking, and Hermione went up to Ginny's room. The dancing! The DANCING! They were hysterical as they danced togetehr. Hermione really knows how to bust a move. I was very impressed. So was Ginny. <.g> That cemented their friendship.

Then, Ginny met Rilla. I thought it was great, she needed a friend her own age so she could have a party. She really, really wants to have a party. They hung out a lot, talked, gossiped, danced. Then. Ginny flirts. Rilla flirts back. Ladies and gentlemen, Ginny Weasley has her first crush, and it's quite mutual. Rilla refuses to go steady or have a sleepover, but they love to hold hands and gaze at each other. It's sweet. And caught me completely unawares, as I had been planning on matching Ginny and *Jem. Go figure.

Paralleling this, we have Ron and Hermione. They've slowly been building the friendship and trust level, and one night in the hot tub, progressed to kissing and cuddling. From there, they made out, made out in bed, and woo-hooed. Next morning, Ron proposed, and she accepted joyfully. Theymarried on Ron's next day off, and Ginny had her first kiss that night as well. Everyone was seeing stars!

Soon after, Hermione got pregnant. And I soon learned that a pregnany Sims mood bars drop twice as fast. Hermione and Ginny were having a midnight snack together when Hermione keeled over dead - her hunger level had bottomed out. The Grim Reaper appeared as Ginny wailed and screamed and begged for Hermione to come back. The Grim Reaper pulled out his cell phone, made a call, and then agreed. He told her to pick the hand that had the blue ball, she did, and Hermione came back to life. Will was born the next day.

Sadly, Ginny grew up the following day, and as teens and adults aren't allowed to be in love, Rilla must grow up before anything more can happen with them.

September 18, 2004

Joshy news

So it turns out Josh had kidney stones - the blood was from passing one, plus he has another in his right kidney. So more tests on Monday, plus CT scans every three months to check on this one. If it's 4mm, it has to be surgically/laser removed, and his is 3mm. So they need to keep an eye on it.

Either he has a metabolic disorder or it's due to the many, many supllements mom's been giving him. Also, he may have had more before and we just never knew. He wouldn't know how or what to tell us about blood or pain, you know? So things to think about.

But, yay, a not-too-serious diagnosis!

September 12, 2004

Joshie

So mom woke me up this morning, telling me Josh had just peed blood. So they've been to the hospital and now are at Josh's doctor's office.

I hate not knowing! I hate waiting. I'm so impatient. And scattered. And I really wish they would call very soon.

Cross your fingers that everthing is as okay as it can be.

eta: okay, they just called. Back to the hospital for a lot of blood tests and to schedule an ultrasound. He's throwing blood, protein and white blood cells into his urine.

September 06, 2004

school again

So I don't get to leave speech after all. Gah!!!!! It's all just killing me. Every bit of it. I don't know up from down anymore, and I certainly can't make any good decisions. I can barely decide what to watch on TV these days.

Hilary says that she's doing library science and it feels like she's a round peg in a round hole. And geez, that's all I want. Something that feels like a fit. Right now I more feel like I'm a square peg going into a rectangular hole, or something. It's close, maybe, but not the right place. But like I said, I don't even know what I want to watch on TV these days.

I'm on a huge Queer as Folk kick these days - it's my escape. <.g> A well written and acted soap opera featuring mostly sexy men - what else can a girl want?! It's sure 1000xs better than GH these days. I'm so disgusted by the misogynistic garbage that it keeps spewing on my screen. (I have far fewer troubles deciding not to watch this show. <.g>) I rented QaF S1 again - watched the first 8 eps last week and will grab the next two discs tomorrow. If only video stores carried later seasons!! Showtime just finished airing S4, and I've still only seen S1! It is to cry.

Kare e-mailed me tonight saying how crappy she felt about a friend who was ignoring her e-mails and texts and all. Dude. All I could offer was, "am there, doing that." It utterly sucks to be ignored by people you thought were friends. I guess I'm feeling a little lonely lately, and so that hit home more. PLus my Jennie has disappeared on me, her cell isn't on and her apartment phone goes to machine, and I miss her. : ( I'm sure she's just at home, enjoying her sibs, but I always worry. <.g>

30 minutes until Ken Jennings on Jeopardy! I love him.

September 01, 2004

school bits

I've been trying, every day,to explain a little of my feelings about school to mom. It goes better in little bits than it does trying to explain everything. Especially since this has been coming to me in bits over a period of time, and it's completely unfair to expect her or dad to get it all at once. They need time, just like me.

So today we talked a little bit, and discussed my dropping neuro as a credit class to easemy load. (Last night, the teacher (who reminded me SO MUCH of Tamara Braun) said how last year after the first class six people dropped and one ended up sobbing in the bathroom about how she wanted to leave the program and find out if her old job was still available. I sympathized. <.g>) I like this option. I felt much better about things after that talk.

Then I called after class this morning, and we talked again. She's pushing for me to apply to the library science program this week/next week and see if I can get accepted now. "End this charade" is the way she put it. So, I read about the application process and such, found the name of my writing teacher from junior year - he's the only professor I can think of!

As it turns out, my girl doesn't have an aide yet.

But see...I feel bad. I feel bad that this was important to mom and I can't do it. This very likely shouldn't have an impact on my big life choices, but it does. (Like Jess, I have a strong attachment to my family <.g>) I feel guilty that I can't do what she expects me to do. And then on top of that, of course I have the fear that library science isn't it for me, either, and what the fuck do I do then?

One really nice thing about the application, though, is part of it is visiting a library and interviewing and asking questions and learning about the job. I think that's really great, and something I would definitely want to do anyway. That may help alleviate myfears of finding another profession that doesn't agree with me.

Also, this is a very big step of independence and making up my own mind and making choices, and well, I'm not too good at any of those things. But I guess it's best to jump in and try now, than never.

Eep.